my 3 year old pronounces “remember” as “pomember” and it’s the actual, literal cutest thing in the entire world

A sort of birthday?

Four years ago today I went in to the fertility clinic for a brief and extremely unpleasant procedure, and a few hours later the doctor called to tell me they’d been able to create five embryos from my eggs. Two of those embyros didn’t make it. Another two are still in a freezer somewhere. The fifth? The fifth embryo is currently running around yelling about Pokemon and pretending to be a dinosaur. Happy fourth anniversary of existence, bean.

found myself saying “maybe soon we can go on a real bus!” to my son

covid sure has changed our expectations of life and ideas of what’s exciting, huh

Went for a mini walk in the woods with the toddler today.

I saw two crows gathering nesting material today

that’s it, that’s the post

Went for a tiny walk today and saw the first butterfly of the year, first bumblebee of the year, and this tree full of little birds’ nests. none of the nearby trees had any at all. do they like to have neighbours?? maybe a bird who builds several for their mate to choose from?

3yo has discovered the concept of April fools day, and has been repeatedly april fooling me, by pointing at something which is not a stegosaurus and gleefully informing me that it is, in fact, a stegosaurus

Currently playing Everhood, which feels kind of like someone looked at that one really fucked up fight in Undertale and went “hey, what if we made a whole game like this” ๐ŸŽฎ

got another little owlet screenshot! they’re getting so big

My 3yo found this on the table and immediately gasped “oh! A diamond!”

love that kid.

also, I have been watching a webcam of a tawny owl with her owl babies a lot this month

the babies are so goddamn fluffy and i love them


๐ŸŽฎ just finished playing Spiritfarer recently and damn, it is such a beautiful game. like, it’s really gorgeous visually, but also the story was told really beautifully and I loved how it didn’t try to make everything happy and okay, just about… being more or less at peace with what’s happening.

also Stella managed to be an incredibly endearing protagonist without ever speaking. the enthusiasm and joyfulness that came through in her body language and animations was so well done. and the cat! she would pet the cat every time she sat down! i loved that.

also, god, I really love my Switch and I am so happy I bought it. it’s made gaming so much vastly more accessible for me.

Seedlings! Tiny baby seedlings!


I have been waiting for months for Maquette to come out, because it seems just exactly like my kind of game.

It came out this week, I bought it, started it up all excited.

It looks absolutely gorgeous, the voice acting is cute and well done, the concept is super cool.

…. and something about the way the player character moves around gives me the most horribly intense motion sickness. I had to turn it off and lie still for half an hour before it stopped.



saw some yarnbombing outside the pharmacy today (don’t worry, it always gets cleaned up after a couple days)

“what level of pandemic fatigue are you on right now”

well, tomorrow i have to go have my spine x-rayed, and I’m honestly really excited about it because it means I’ll be somewhere other than my house for a while

…on a mostly but not entirely unrelated note, i have been sitting here for two hours thinking “wow, I’m really hungry” and then not getting myself any food because I’m too goddamn tired to move

so my kid decided that he is actually Baba from Puffin Rock today, which apparently involves a lot of hugging me and saying “baba love!”. my heart, it has melted into a puddle.

birthday memory thoughts

this time exactly three years ago, i was… in a hospital room with my co-parent, exhaustedly mumbling “but the baby won’t go to sleep in the cot? at all? they’re asleep on me but then i put them SO GENTLY in the cot and they just START SCREAMING? how do they even know?? what am i doing wrong i don’t think this baby is working as intended”

they never did learn to sleep in a cot, and i didn’t get much sleep for their first six months. you know those pictures of opossum mothers with their babies clinging to their fur? that was me.

i almost miss it. but on the other hand, could a tiny clingy newborn build Lego towers with me or tell me about their current favourite dinosaur or run around for an hour shouting “happy birthday! happy birthday! balloons!” or patiently explain to me, at length, that Pikachu is an electric type?

Today was my little bean’s third birthday (holy shit) so i attempted baking by myself for the first time in like… twenty years? currant buns with chocolate sprinkles and icing. they were wonky looking but totally edible!

my windowsill flowers are blissfully unaware that it’s February and have decided to bloom early

can this pandemic please fucking end already. i have no money i can’t just keep buying chocolate and yarn and videogames just to feel something

by 2022 i am expecting to be toothless, completely spherical and wrapped head to foot in bad crochet

Crochet/knitting is so weird because really, all you’re doing is taking a single piece of string and tying it into a very large, complicated knot. ๐Ÿงถ

Clearing out the kitchen drawer today I found a letter inviting me to bring my kid for their two-year health check-up. The date on it? March 18th 2020.

we still haven’t gone for that check-up.

Little pawprints in the snow this morning